Hard lesson, Peace, and Praise.

So, I have refrained from blogging the past couple of days due to my need to study//get hit upside the head by God and be taught a lesson. I've been struggling in my Nursing Fundamentals this semester due to many reasons and with it being finals week it came down to D Day. My grade has been calculated and I need to make a 78 on my final in order to pass this class and remain in this cohort of people set to graduate in May of 2012. Making less than a 78 will result in failing this class and having to go through the waiting process of being added to the next group of nursing students below me, graduating late, and as God so "kindly" wrote on my forehead....NOT the plan I had in mind. Lately I've been questioning my abilities and purpose here in Milledgeville and in this nursing program, discouraged about the increased time needed to spend on my studies and decreased time for discipling, bible studies, fellowship, and reading. I've been frustrated with not being able to be 100% committed to the things and people the Lord has placed in front of me and not fulfilling the things I see that need to be done. After breaking down and being humbled I have returned to the reassuring facts that I; am not my own, can release the stress of having to be in charge and get things done, and I don't have to rely on my own plans. I serve a God that is mighty to save and doesn't need my help telling him how things should be. I also serve a God that can accomplish things without my help, I don't have to be able to do everything 100%. My God is bigger than any test and has a plan that is perfect (even if that includes failing and graduating late). Its funny how clearly we can see the lives of others and offer them encouragment and reassurance of God's plan and promises but how quick we are to  forget them in application in our own lives. Thank the Lord for peace that surpasses all understanding, support and encouragement of fellow brothers and sisters in Christ, and the discipline and teaching He does. Last night I enjoyed fellowship with friends, worship time in the car on the way home, surrendering of my will and this test to the Lord and studing in peace. I took my (now, not so life altering) final this morning at 8 am and have peace knowing the it is in the Lord's hands and His will be done. I find out the results sometime this afternoon and will praise Him regardless of the outcome.

Happy Birthday to the Best Mother I know!! So blessed with such an amazing example of a Godly woman.

I love you!!!

Miss Maggie Prestwood and I at Church on Sunday.